Awakening Change.

This year I have really changed. 2007 has only been a reality for 44 days, but in those 44 days I've felt a spark inside. In that short time, I've begun to find clarity. I've realized that I do not care for myself like I care for everyone else that I love. I think many women forget to take care of themselves because they are so busy...so very busy...busy taking care of everyone they love.

Ever see someone concentrate so much on their exercise technique that they "forget" to breathe? I have been forgetting to breathe.

Women - we care for our loved ones with such "tender" love, but most of us put ourselves on hold until everyone else is content...but then we're just too tired and sleep sounds better. I am guilty of this and had no idea how much it was effecting me, which in turn also negatively effects those people I'm working so hard to make happy.

This year, I decided I would make a conscious effort to care for myself.

I joined a gym and get this....I actually go! I had no idea what a stress reliever running on a treadmill could be. Anyone who knows me knows I love Mountain Dew. I realize it doesn't love me nearly as much. I've replaced many of them with water. I honestly feel better physically than I have in ten years.

I have, for the first time in many years, been building up my spiritual walk again. I have to say there is truly nothing else on earth that brings me peace. I am beginning to look at my life from an entirely different angle. I don't really know what that means just yet, but I feel stronger.

I have been trying to "capture" my thoughts and I have to say they are beginning to change. It's just like breaking any other habit. Our thoughts dictate our mood and ultimately our behavior. Imagine how much more peaceful life we controlled our thoughts instead of the other way around. It's difficult. Start paying attention to your own thoughts and see what percentage of your thoughts are negative.

2007 is going to be a good year for me. I have many pedicures in my future.